Thursday, May 5, 2011
The above picture is from a practice date. The guy actually went out with Jill and Cindy on a double date a few years ago so he knew what he was in for. It is weird to put myself in a female role on a date and while I have no intention of making it a habit, I hope I learned a few things that will serve me well when I can go back to dating women. Is that too cliche?
Last weekend with Xiu was a pretty big culmination. We've been told that things will calm down between us a bit, but last weekend, we were tied into the 69 position with our dildos strapped on and proceeded to have a competition. I won as Xiu was just incapable of even going through the motions and while my practice date knew, hers did not.
Don't expect to have quite as many postings from me this week, but expect them to have a lot of detail. About the person I wanted to block---I'm in a weird position here. My situation is non-consensual, but I realize it's consensually non-consensual. If I could take these heels off right now I would, but I don't hate it enough to go through what I'd have to go through to end things. In a lot of ways both Xiu and I deserve what happened to us and I'm at least trying to make it a positive experience. However, there are certain things I find very objectionable and I can't see as shades of gray. Somethings are just wrong and I got creeped out by a follower who is into stuff that I don't ever want associated with this blog. I will be looking at the blocking options that many of you were very kind to send me.